little murs x big world

It’s been 365 days since my surgery. If you asked me a year ago if this is where I thought my life would be, the answer would’ve been no.

So much can change in a year.

2025 was hands down the worst year of my life (and let me tell ya, that’s saying something). It broke me in ways that I didn’t think was possible. When I think back on the last year, I’m honestly surprised that I made it through sometimes. I was so lost, I felt so angry, at my body and life.

Have you ever had a migraine so bad that you vomited? And you vomited so hard that you got a nose bleed? It’s not fun. Going from debilitating pain and not being able to shower myself, to completing a half marathon in 7 months is pretty crazy. I’m not sure if I was just determined or stubborn. Probably both but more likely the latter.

Through all of the pain, tears, doctors appointments, tests & crash outs.. I still have so much to be thankful for.

To my body: God damn you’ve been through hell & back, and the battle isn’t done yet. I know you’ve been through it. There is so much out of your control but you’re doing what you can. I’ll never ever take you for granted, I promise to continue to do everything I can to feel strong and to take care of you for a long long time. Just hang in there.

To my mind: You can do anything. I know it’s overwhelming, remember to focus on the light when there’s darkness. Mentally, you’re the most resilient, but it’s okay to ask for help.

To my heart: It’s okay to let other people take care of you every once in a while.

To my village: I couldn’t have made it through this past year (and what’s to come) without you all. I am so incredibly blessed beyond words.

Health is truly wealth. But wealth is also more than that. It’s the love you give & receive, it’s the people that are in your life, it’s the memories you make, it’s the deep belly laughs, it’s finding joys in the little things and moments. Spend time with the right people and doing things that make you feel good. It’s where you’ll find the most peace & happiness.

Healing is not linear. Healing is not easy. The only way out is through. But you can do it.

With Love,
Murs